Tuesday, October 24 @11:01 PM
i'm tired of holding on to nothing. I'm tired of praying for nothing. i'm tired of trying so hard to work something out but yet get nothing. I'm tired of putting my heart in everything yet in the end, receive nothing.
I love you. I still love you. I want you. I still want you. I miss you. I still miss you.
If i lie here. if i just lie here. Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Friday, October 20 @1:25 AM
Maybe you nvr will. Maybe oneday, i will get to see the rainbow. Maybe this storm will not end. Maybe oneday i will be able to fly freely in the sky. Maybe i will be stuck between those metal rods. Maybe oneday i will feel you within. Maybe oneday you will just walk away.
Maybe you just dont understand how i feel inside. But maybe someday you will.
Friday, October 6 @12:36 AM
I hate how everything crumble down. when all i want was the strong walls to stand tall. I hate how i am able to give in without thinking of restaining myself. I hate why i try to brush everyone off when i really want them to stay. I hate how i try to make things go with the flow. yet let water stay still and resist the waves when it comes.
I hate it when i try to pretend not to bother. when i know i really give a damn. I hate how i try to act as though nothing happened. when everything brought me down on my knees. I hate it when i try to stay sober what all i want is to get drunk and forget the world. I hate it when i try so hard to say yes when all i wanna say is no.