Thursday, November 22 @9:40 PM
mbaye you souhld sratt tihninkg waht wnet wrnog. I wulod lvoe to konw waht you fnoud.
answers?
i will still find time to update this, promise.
=)
@8:53 PM
Sometimes life just goes on even when you choose to live with deepest inquisitions. As i step up moments to probe my idyllic delusions and level up ecstatic raptures to moralize those illustrated agony, i found joy in the simplest.
As words can only express,
I want to be the last on your mind before you sleep and the first when the morning shines.
say ok?
roars.
despite the fact that, i was all grumpy today.
today went great. =)
p/s: sorry if i offended anyone.
Tuesday, November 20 @4:52 PM
I fell when i shouldn't allow.
I sink, when i told myself i won't
I dreamt, as i falsed myself through.
[CONTENT DELETED ON PURPOSE]
and
i did alittle spring-cleaning in terms of entries
lalalala~! I'm a happy girl
in the misery of red patches. =/
Sunday, November 18 @11:18 PM
In the Space between what's wrong and right,
you will find me waiting for you.
All your Fortresses go down in the night
'Till the dawn I'll see you through
'Cos I know, that you know -- you're all over me now
And it's clear -- you will show
And your curtains will go
But if your heart is cold
My sheets are warm
I will shelter you, through the storm
I will shelter you, all through the storm
Thursday, November 15 @11:59 PM
If I can query a day, I wonder how I want my perfect to be.
If I can announce a moment, I wonder how delightful I will be.
If I can dream a walk, I wonder how brilliant it will be.
But none of these will count, if unique loses u.
-
A random note
Today,
I acted as a crazy mother of 4 rebellious kids,
I conquered reservoir,
I had major gastric after physical,
I was constantly reminded,
I fought a battle,
I loitered.
Yet I’m unhappy.
So much to say. And again,
The words are not coming out right.
I feel like a fool.
Maybe I should step away for awhile.
Tmr will be the start of all aches.
And I’m so not looking forward to it.
Entice me once again, will you?
what's left?
Wednesday, November 14 @12:00 AM
I said thank you because your smile made me smile.
As for future trainings,
I will vote for kiki from now onwards.
sorry mad/pris/ dam.
=D
today's awesome.
except the fact that kf sabo-ed me into some group leader.
HURHUR. kf if you are reading this, i'm still angry =(
but i love you still. hehheh.
Saturday, November 10 @12:48 AM
I cant believe i'm saying this
but i love my mates so much.
Cant imagine life without you guys.
from rowdy bunch of retards
to the sweetest most loveable angels.
All adds up to the colours of my life.
and needless to say,
you're a constant.
Thursday, November 8 @10:58 PM
[current mood- glittery ]
[current song - Clumsy by Fergie]
First time That I saw your eyes
Girl you looked right through me, mmmhmm
Play it cool
But I knew you knew
That cupid hit me, mmmhmmm
You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you
Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]
Can't breath
When you touch me, see
Butterflies so crazy, mmmhmmm
Whoa now, think I'm goin down
Friends don't know whats with me, mmmhmmm
You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you
Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]
You know, this isn't the first time this has happened to me
This love sick thing
I like serious relationships
and a girl like me dont stay single for long
Cuz everytime a girlfriend and I break up
My world is crushed and I'm all alone
The love bug crawls right back up and bites me and I'm back
Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]
You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you [x3]
-
Omg, its been way tooo long!
finally.
Sunday, November 4 @12:47 AM
Struck. Stuck. Struggle. Stark.
perhaps, I'm wrong.
someone enlighten me further please.
i love the girls!
they never fail to make me smile
and on the other hand, kill me softly.
the heartrending night.
drastically revolutionize.
I'm seeking for joy and solemn at the same time.
Uncanny as it seems,
Ignorance is not bliss sometimes.
nothing but a heart of yearns alone.
Saturday, November 3 @12:14 AM
Ripped this off cuzzie's blog earlier and finds it really meaningful. It somewhat summarises the sentiments I'm undergoing (in another way) which may/not link back to fear. Hopefully. i say hopefully, she wont kill me when she sees this on mine. so for now as I'm still alive.
There it goes.
I'm not afraid to be your lady
I'm not afraid to be your whore
I'm not afraid to be your future
I'm not afraid to be your soil
In which you plant your seed
Flowers, they sprout for me
My fragrance in the breeze
You must nurture me please
I'm not afraid to be your baby
I'm not afraid to be your strength
I'm not afraid to be open wide
I'm not afraid to be glutinous
The essence of glue I will stick to you
Through earthquakes and moods
If ever one thing was true
I'm not afraid to wind it, wind it
I'm not afraid to keep your pace
I'm not afraid to create my queendom
I'm not afraid to take my place
As I'm not afraid one fine day you'll find,
you're not afraid to be mine.
Playlist of quirky dreamy - I'm not afraid by Jill Scott
Friday, November 2 @12:55 AM
It’s funny how we credit moments like how we try to insert colours on a monotonous picture. The memories playlist. At certain instance (like now). Choose to play at its own discretion. which is reckoned as unfit. for the intent moment.
Excessively evoked. Greatly denoted. Cardinally hark back. More often than not. It draws back to the slightest probable incursion.
Soundless as it is to naked ear. The voice remains. Yet there is no disguise which can possibly. Veil the existence where it is or rouse where it doesn’t.
As I credit those moments which I tried to add colours on, it dulled my life away. All these sentiments, not frequently undergone, intrude once fortnightly. But each time, it settles in for a period of time. So till then. As negatively sane I may/will stay. For what its worth. The pursuit of happiness still remains.
IlLUSTrated images, left hanging.
door shut. out.
Moment of unjustified confusion -
Inconsolable by Backstreet Boys.