Saturday, November 18 @1:37 AM
As said always, We will go far if we stepped out. Now that we stepped out. We gotta stay on track and not fall off. Although we did. Sidetrack a little. We managed to make a come back fast enough for the next. All this while, today was the best. We came back and now we are gona strike back! (:
I'm so proud. Proud to be in THIS team. Proud to play floorball with THIS team. Proud of the fabulous match we played today although it was a lost. Proud of the fighting spirit THIS team had. Proud that THIS team, despite all the conflicts we had, is able to stay united as ONEwolves.
Tp wolves, the best team i ever had. Tp wolves is the world to me. Tp wolves will nvr let anyone down. Tp wolves will fight to the end. Tp wolves is the ultimate champion within ourselves.
Wednesday, November 8 @9:52 PM
Hitting the sheets while considering the impossibility on resuming reality. For real to meet my own needs (wants) and play juggle for what i seek at my own pace. WITH the right mind. At this point in time. I told myself i will do well. As much as I want to be a part of the play. the winning play. Trying hard to brace purposeful walls to support sudden breakdowns.
Who the hell will care abt what you have done in preparation. Who the hell will care how much you cherish every moment you step in. Despite the fact that. you stepped out. Jumped off track. And got hit by the coming train from the opposite direction. as you try hard to win the undesirable war.
I know how to differ right and wrong. In life, nothing is perfect. But if i have to embrace myself with all that i have at this moment right now. I dont wanna trip what i tripped. I dont want to fall like how i fell broken before.
I hate how the walls around me stand in hope that it will crumble down one day. I hate how i let my pride stand so tall. yet it brings me down to my knees. I hate how i try to restrict myself as much as i want to embrace it. I hate how i seem as though i cant be bothered but inside i know that i really give-a-damn. I hate all the reasons that i try so hard. work so hard but i dont reap what i sow.
The unspoken truth. Slapped me right across my face. Those last words you said. repeated in my mind. Somehow, i rather you not say it. but this time round, i will take my chances and prove you wrong.
Pull me. Push me. I'm not your play. Watch me. and you will see.
Monday, November 6 @1:11 AM
I feel like an un-important fool sometimes. Being ard you no longer equates to simplifedbeauty but un- blessedhardship at this bloody moment. From light up to light down, been rationalising assumptions. Self assumptions infact.
Conclusion- Our ceiling of happiness (and i'm the pillar of your support) showed signs of crack. yet it's love. Our love. that mend it back.
I wanna go back to the time. when love. was lustsimple. when love. doesnt equates to uncertain emotional disorder.
The whirlpool of messy thoughts and emotions running through my constant mind and the never ending amount of buts and idontknows creeping out of my mouth time after time.
Those words you said. Hit me so hard. I fell so hard. I know you are stressed but i'm only trying to help.
@12:39 AM
Who you think you are. Without defends. You tried so hard to fight the losing war. Try building your wall of respect.
I was thisclose to disregard it all and forgive you. Now, I am thisclose to bang your half-bulit wall. Thisclose to struggle you alive. Thisclose to seal your mouth shut. You shd know this better.
Well o well, seems to you that i was against you when you are the one who is against yourself.
oh you, poor little silly thing