Sunday, February 25 @10:09 PM
Midnight teevee shows. 2am small talks. Eggs and sausages brunch. Toasted tickles. Pats nights. Phoebe's game. Midnight strike home. Funny flowers. Snack bags. Illusionary colours. Soft tears. Goggle pooh. Flower shorts. JLTC tees. Intentional arguments. Late night prata. Changi chicks. Sleepy head. All nicely embossed. Countdown blues. Torture black. Brown coffee. white socks. Taste of black parade.
Stay close, don't go.
I will miss you so.
Saturday, February 24 @1:13 AM
Not something i always say. but i miss floorball. i miss wolves. I miss settling up boards. I miss gym-ing. I miss running. I miss the girls! I miss bathing/ auntie&kfsinging sessions. I miss lunch after. I miss i miss i miss! One more week -pouts! ):
the sweet escape
you're my sweet escape. not?
Thursday, February 22 @10:58 PM
Mind conversed. Head spun. Lost controlled of actions like how. Mentally again. Speaking random thoughts. Occupied. Congested. Unfathomable. Leg strayed. Randomness stayed. Tripped. Watchful eyes. Bright lights. The random back alley. Forbidden side. No one knew. Depressed. Laidback nature. Made a switch. Something hit. From somewhere. Someone striking. From somewhere. Anyone hitch. From somewhere. Not.
Random enough to remember three. Flowers dried. Box kept. Tied. Sealed in the heart. Those words. Obsession belongs together. Sinking in. Kinking up. Fondled with words. The major seduction. Not.
Stressing with three. Four. Dripping on trip. Sleeping on stack. Lust over love. Love last. Devotion in motion. Triple four. Forty-five. Fifteen to night. Canopy of love starts. The complication of emotions. Parties and partners. Flings and kinks. Dates and moments. Drugged. Not.
Smoove groove. Confidence. Both strength and weakness. Intellects and wits. The soft spot to grave. Jack of trades. Master of mind. Words. Dreaming. Not.
Welcome to my random world. Not.
Wednesday, February 21 @7:24 PM
tell me i'm wrong abt you and the world.
suga' suga how you get so fly?
Monday, February 19 @8:11 PM
Had this conversation with this someone. And it made me realised how detached I had been towards my loves one or rather, the one who is closest to me.
Time and time again, I ignored her presence. I ignored her when she needs me to be there for her. I ignored her (by locking myself in my room) when she needed me to pour her a glass of water for her. I ignored her when all she wanted me to do is to cover her with blanket when she’s shivering.
And ME. Needless to say, failed to do all this for her.
So now (even though i know its too late), I apologise for my ignorance. I apologise for all I did. I know my apologies. You will nvr accept. I know my words will nvr be trustable. Gimme this another chance to prove it to you. Don’t give up on me so soon. I love you.
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On a much depressing note,
Lunar New year's holidays are ending soon! oh no. Please dont. Once its ends, my exams are coming.
Friday 23rd - Maths
Mon 26th - Esfac
Tues 27th - tbp
Thurs 1st - Rebus
Fri 2nd - Htm
:(
Ps: I quit typing in a very alienic language already! (right, haha? )
PPS: Joreen is a cute girl!(: (forced, so dont blame)
Sunday, February 18 @4:44 AM
you make me smile when i hear your voice (:
gong xi fa cai, everyone!
Monday, February 5 @1:53 PM
Dear to-whom-it-may-concern,
I think its time to wake up your ideas. For I nvr once come across. Such uncouth remarks. Such “remarkable” talents. Such skeptical plot. Uncivilized. Immature. Rude gestures. Typical language. Typical words. Typical thoughts. Such similar strikeback. That I nvr thought it will be you.
Someone who was once so sweet. Who was once so thoughtful. Someone who was once so loveable. Who was once a harmless creature. Someone who I once stand together with. Someone who used to be walking on the same path. Someone who brought me memories just so yesterday. Someone who made my life a better. To be some bitch who only can think of her pride and nothing else.
I had seen many people. Read many schemes. Watch people roaming over familiar ground. but I nvr seen such a harmless face with such an incorrigible personality. Extremely disheartening. Disappointing.
I heard what I couldn’t believe. I read what I couldn’t decipher. I triggered what I tripped. I halt for a stop. For various reasons. Not because you were my game. But you played me out. I called for Dutch. I called for outs. But you nvr once let me. You were in. so was I. and what I heard was nothing along that line.
You called for persistence but I couldn’t let myself do so. I held on for different reasons not because of the usual 3 words. And when I realized I know it was too late to turn back but I just got to do so.
Whatever you said. Whatever you did. Wasn’t something I can believe. The way you behave. The way you smiled wasn’t something I could see. Seeing is not believing. After so long I finally get it, maybe from the start I nvr know you.
I nvr know the girl inside on you. I nvr understand the girl you used to be. I nvr will be able to tell what your heart was saying. I doubt a thousand times. Eliminating all I heard. But facts are facts. You still uphold your unfathomable pride. Your indigent dignity. I know you want your nobility. But please get it the right way.
Do it in such a way that it doesn’t make me the bad guy. Because from the start I nvr was. I gave up things that I nvr once thought I ever will. For you. I did. Put down my ego. For you. I did try to make things work the right way. But you know. Forcing is never the way to win a girl’s heart. And you also know love shd happen for a reason naturally.
It’s usually easy to perceive the way you deceive. But assumptions were never the way it used be. I hope you still have your conscience.
Last but not least, you know who you are.
Regards,
Jessica