i moved to the rhythm of your lust
and you wanted me
the way you needed it
Have you ever wondered?
In your vision,
Child crying and shouting
So happened is yours.
Husband, 7 years your junior,
Walking out with an axe.
In your vision,
Child crying and shouting
So happened is yours.
Husband, 7 years your junior,
Walking out with an axe.
and you live your life in a trailer.
near a forest.
I did.
or rather used to.
--
Ever wondered,
What decision is more painful?
Ever think about,
What is your manifesto?
Three things I learnt
- The portrait of your life is painted with the brush of your character.
- There is nothing more dangerous then the moment you become a hostage to yesterday’s comfort zone.
- Whatever you refuse to confront today will be next to impossible to confront tomorrow.
"For I will never become a prisoner of yesterday."
I feel stronger now.
I want a soulmate.
People keep a lookout for me!
Okay since that’s so. I’m going to used Denise’s method
(which I think will be rather useful)
If anyone is interested you can fill in the form below.
Name: __________________________________
Gender: Female
Orientation: Gay
Age: ____ (above 19)
Telephone number: ______________________(Hp)
Ethnicity: ________________________________
Horoscope: _______________________________
Occupation: ______________________________
Add: ___________________________________
______________________Singapore ( )
Email address: ____________________________
If studying,
School: _________________________________
Course: _________________________________
Level of course: ______
(I don’t know how this is going to affect)
If working,
Company: _______________________________
Post: ___________________________________
Monthly income: ___________________________
If working,
Company: _______________________________
Post: ___________________________________
Monthly income: ___________________________
(in Singapore dollars)
**If you are in both section, fill in BOTH.
More about you
More about you
Do you think you are hot? Y/N
Into Lipstick lesbian scene? Y/N
Mannerism: ______________________________
Role: Versatile
Language(s) spoken: ________________________
Best Traits: ______________________________
Do you smoke? Y/ N
Can you hold your liquor well? Y/N
Your Past
How many ex-gfs?__________________________
How long per relationship? ____________________
Are you totally over your most recent ex? Y/N
Are you currently commitment-phobic? Y/N
What is love to you? (Keep it to 5 sentences)
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
Interests
What are your hobbies?
_______________________________________
Mannerism: ______________________________
Role: Versatile
Language(s) spoken: ________________________
Best Traits: ______________________________
Do you smoke? Y/ N
Can you hold your liquor well? Y/N
Your Past
How many ex-gfs?__________________________
How long per relationship? ____________________
Are you totally over your most recent ex? Y/N
Are you currently commitment-phobic? Y/N
What is love to you? (Keep it to 5 sentences)
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
Interests
What are your hobbies?
_______________________________________
Do you club/pub? Y/N
If yes, how often? __________________________
Are you a sport person? Y/N
If yes, what? _____________________________
Do you play music? Y/N
If yes, what? _____________________________
What kind of music you prefer?
______________________________________
Do you cook? Y/N
If yes, what? _____________________________
Do you cook? Y/N
If yes, what? _____________________________
Are you a homemaker? Y/N
Are you well-versed with the LKS*? Y/N
Write a short paragraph below if you have anything to add on.
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
_______________________________________
Last but no least, please kindly attach a recent picture of you
together with the application form. Good day!
End.
**** Applicants short listed will be notified by phone.
Closing date: Infinite/ the day Jessica gets attached
Please kindly email the above Application Form to
Jessica’s Email add.
If you have any enquiries, please let me know.
Thank you.
*LKS is actually Lesbian KarmaSutra
Let’s go to the park
I wanna kiss u underneath the stars
Maybe we’ll go too far
We just don’t care
We just don’t care
We just don’t care
U know I love u when u loving me
Sometimes it’s better when it’s publicly
I’m not ashamed I don’t care who sees
Just hugging & kissing our love exhibition all
We rendezvous out on the fire escape
I like to set up an alarm today
The love emergency don’t make me wait
Just follow I’ll lead u
I urgently need you
Let’s go to the park
I wanna kiss u underneath the stars
Maybe we’ll go too far
We just don’t care
We just don’t care
We just don’t
Let’s make love,
let’s go somewhere they might discover us
Let’s get lost in lies
We just don’t care
We just don’t care
We just don’t care
I see u closing down the restaurant
Let’s sneak and do it when your boss is gone
Everybody’s leaving we’ll have some fun
Or maybe it’s wrong but u turn me on
Ooh, we’ll take a visit to your Mama’s house
Creep to the bedroom while your Mama’s out
Maybe she will hear it when we scream and shout
And we will keep it rocking until she comes knocking
Let’s go to the park
I wanna kiss u underneath the stars
Maybe we’ll go too far
We just don’t care
We just don’t care
We just don’t
Let’s make love,
let’s go somewhere they might discover us.
Let’s get lost in lies
We just don’t care
We just don’t care
We just don’t care
If we keep up on this fooling around
We’ll be the talk of the town
I’ll tell the world I’m in love any time
Let’s open up the blinds cause we really don’t mind
Ooh I don’t care about the priority
Let’s break the rules and ignore society
Maybe our neighbor like to spy too
So what if they watch when we do what we do
Oh, let’s go to the park
I wanna kiss u underneath the stars
Maybe we’ll go too far
We just don’t care
We just don’t care
We just don’t
Let’s make love,
let’s go somewhere they might discover us…
John Legend - P.D.A. (We Just Don’t Care)
(:
For a moment, today.
I thought things were
back to those days..
but i chose not.
not to believe. not to believe.
I stepped out of
my comfort zone.
and got stranded in
another.
A brand new place
that I found.
a brand new me.
Dear,
i miss you.
Quoted from our msn conversation @ 1.35AM
Totally Jessified says:
so are you having cone-bia now?
farah says:
HAHA
farah says:
NO
farah says:
soooo high ok
farah says:
im craving for moreee
farah says:
7 cones is no joke
Totally Jessified says:
OMG
Conclusion:
Sometimes, people who plays floorball (not everyone) does crazy stuffs. okay maybe not floorball in general but wolves (like i said not everyone). haha. Apparently afew of them went hunting for ben's and jerry's all around singapore (not literally) just because its free cones day. haha. Well, after chatting with farah for that short moment, i believe that icecream are aphrodisiacs. Okay maybe not icecreams but CHUNKY MONKEY!
Happy Cone Day, everyone!
Surprised surprise! (:
Totally Jessified says:
so are you having cone-bia now?
farah says:
HAHA
farah says:
NO
farah says:
soooo high ok
farah says:
im craving for moreee
farah says:
7 cones is no joke
Totally Jessified says:
OMG
Conclusion:
Sometimes, people who plays floorball (not everyone) does crazy stuffs. okay maybe not floorball in general but wolves (like i said not everyone). haha. Apparently afew of them went hunting for ben's and jerry's all around singapore (not literally) just because its free cones day. haha. Well, after chatting with farah for that short moment, i believe that icecream are aphrodisiacs. Okay maybe not icecreams but CHUNKY MONKEY!
Happy Cone Day, everyone!
Surprised surprise! (:
HELLO fellow bloggers/readers,
Anw, if you all dint know. I was working today and i dint manage to sell any mp3 today due to the bad crowd. like who will go shopping for eletronics on a monday. sooo. i brought along my Btt book to read since there's nothing esle to do because the PS3 promoter (i forgot his name) dint come. So pathetic i tell you. and finally i'm learning to appreciate gaming.
How i wish there are games for fb. I swear i will buy a PSP for that. hahaha. okay stupid idea. andddd i dont like the idea of people picking on my skirt. okay enough said. Depressing part, i dint go for training just now again due to work. did i tell you that best denki although its rather classy because everyone gotta wear shirts and tie for the guys and shirt and skirt for girls its filled with pervs. So irritating i tell you. knnnbcccccb! pardon me for that.
On a lame note,
Myra drew this because she bluff char that she curled her hair. i just gotta admit that its so her lah. although her body is not a triangle. Its rather.... Ahem*ahem. haha okay. but the long eyelashes, bimbo smile, stiletto, handbag. is so her lah. andddd. she shd have drawn herself in camisole. right wanie? LOL. haha like what kf said in her blog. raaa you never fail to make me laugh my ass off. awwww. i miss you all.
Wee~ Lunch tmr (:
Jess
Current
Mood = Hanging by the moment.
Thought = Random
Phrase = Brightly shining, dimly lit (i saw it on MTV earlier)
MTV = An old woman dancing in tights and floral sleeveless top
Doing = multi-tasking (on the phone with yingying, watching MTV and typing this)
Complaint = Work tmr. dread.
Reminder = BTT on wednesday!
Frustration = Some people so god -damn irritating. Dontknow how their actions affect others.
Anyway.
People, i'm sharing my blog with someone. She might blog every now and then. Hopefully her entries will keep this blog interesting since so many of you complained that my enteries are soooo hard to understand and cryptic. *rolleyes*
Dear Yingying, i am now offically passing the "i-will-keep-people-who-reads-this-blog-interested" responsibility to you. (:
On a random (as mentioned above) note,
To people
Who starts school later. Enjoy school okay. How i wish tp works that way. Godd. Its boringg with school despite the distance.
Who starts SIP later, enjoy work okay. Takecare.
Who are still waiting for school to start. dont jump out and scold me please. I just gotta choose between work and school. dadadada.
goodnight loves.
You kept thinking.
i kept missing.
I guess its time to.
stop dreaming.
I say not.
you forced yes.
holding back.
Not holding on.
last time.
not you. not me.
This time.
not me. not i. not us.
heart. mind.
still don't tally.
search my soul, will you?
Words my heart and mind speaks don’t tally.
Dreams and nightmares my heart reads rarely.
It’s going to be a long bumpy ride.
Buckle up. Sit back. and Enjoy.
I’m waiting.
So I’m still here waiting.
But something cut me off in between.
I see something beautiful ahead of me.
Something that I once foresee.
Something that is coming in strong.
That girl push me.
Another pull me.
Some say hit me.
Some say love me.
A few thrill me
Yet. None.
Hold me. Enchant me and make me Colourblind.
#1
Happy thoughts! Happy thoughts!
she's back. Like finally! (:
#2
You people just dontknow how much you mean to me.
Thank you for always being here.
#3
Sugar dearest,
I hope you are okay. Call me when you are feeling better.
and more....
Okay people. Here I’m blogging again.
The past few days weren’t an extreme good start. I was feeling extremely emo. Until the emo-ness had totally taken over my brain and break me down. Super emo I tell you. Super. Best part was there was nothing I could do to feel better.
Things that I tried to make me feel better (not in any sequence)
- Going for foot reflex Why? Because I couldn’t do a full body massage since my tattoo is peeling. (It was relaxing but dint help much but give me more pain)
- Retail Therapy Why? Because I wanted to. Duh! (Dint really work because everywhere reminds me of you)
- Watching more TV drama. Why? Because drama = More emo and seeing someone else emo makes you feel a little better about yourself which is relatively true. (Work for awhile until I become a TV addict)
- Watch more DVDs. (Means buy more DVDs = more Malaysia trips)
- Reading the book Chloe passed to me. Why? Because she feels that I need this more than her. Why? Because I haven’t been this depress and I needa get out of it. Anyway, the book did help for awhile before I fall back into depression. (Thanks to you who keep on haunting me. But nah not your fault.)
- Putting another tattoo (I know people. Its not on impulse because I really wanted it) Why? Maybe it is to take away my inner pain by inflicting external pain. (but my poor little pretty “Denise” is peeling now. LOL) Why Denise? Because she wanted a mole so my tattoo will look like her. Right?
- Watching “My name is Earl” Why? Because it tells you about a kind of guy who does nothing but bad things and then wonders why his life sucks. Every time something good happened, something bad is always waiting around the corner. (Makes me understand why I’m so depressed now eh?)
- Watching Hanazakarino Kimitachihe. Why? Because I got nothing better to do and apparently Joreen influence me to watch it and always say she will lend me but never did.
- Drinking. and I realized it dint literally work. Why? Because it’s a downer. (Depressed person drinking = more depressing issues. Not helping but running away)
- Pondering about Karma Like how Earl did in My name is Earl. Why? Because I love his definition of it. “Do good things and good things happen? Do bad things and bad things happen?” (relatively true)
- Lazing in bed all day thinking about the greatest mistake I did in life. Why? because that’s the cause of my depression and I know I got to brace up. But I can never get out of it. Why? Because I cant stand up. Yet.
- Jogging my memory about this particular quote that cuzzie pointed out to me the other day.
“I LOST my grip on the monkey bars while swinging from one bar to the next. I FOUND that, to be successful, I had to let go of one rung before latching on to the next.
Reason being: I’ve ruined several relationships by failing to let go of the old before bringing in the new. Being suspended with nothing to hold on is a scary feeling.”
Why? I guess it explains it all.
okay rushing out. ciaos
The past few days weren’t an extreme good start. I was feeling extremely emo. Until the emo-ness had totally taken over my brain and break me down. Super emo I tell you. Super. Best part was there was nothing I could do to feel better.
Things that I tried to make me feel better (not in any sequence)
- Going for foot reflex Why? Because I couldn’t do a full body massage since my tattoo is peeling. (It was relaxing but dint help much but give me more pain)
- Retail Therapy Why? Because I wanted to. Duh! (Dint really work because everywhere reminds me of you)
- Watching more TV drama. Why? Because drama = More emo and seeing someone else emo makes you feel a little better about yourself which is relatively true. (Work for awhile until I become a TV addict)
- Watch more DVDs. (Means buy more DVDs = more Malaysia trips)
- Reading the book Chloe passed to me. Why? Because she feels that I need this more than her. Why? Because I haven’t been this depress and I needa get out of it. Anyway, the book did help for awhile before I fall back into depression. (Thanks to you who keep on haunting me. But nah not your fault.)
- Putting another tattoo (I know people. Its not on impulse because I really wanted it) Why? Maybe it is to take away my inner pain by inflicting external pain. (but my poor little pretty “Denise” is peeling now. LOL) Why Denise? Because she wanted a mole so my tattoo will look like her. Right?
- Watching “My name is Earl” Why? Because it tells you about a kind of guy who does nothing but bad things and then wonders why his life sucks. Every time something good happened, something bad is always waiting around the corner. (Makes me understand why I’m so depressed now eh?)
- Watching Hanazakarino Kimitachihe. Why? Because I got nothing better to do and apparently Joreen influence me to watch it and always say she will lend me but never did.
- Drinking. and I realized it dint literally work. Why? Because it’s a downer. (Depressed person drinking = more depressing issues. Not helping but running away)
- Pondering about Karma Like how Earl did in My name is Earl. Why? Because I love his definition of it. “Do good things and good things happen? Do bad things and bad things happen?” (relatively true)
- Lazing in bed all day thinking about the greatest mistake I did in life. Why? because that’s the cause of my depression and I know I got to brace up. But I can never get out of it. Why? Because I cant stand up. Yet.
- Jogging my memory about this particular quote that cuzzie pointed out to me the other day.
“I LOST my grip on the monkey bars while swinging from one bar to the next. I FOUND that, to be successful, I had to let go of one rung before latching on to the next.
Reason being: I’ve ruined several relationships by failing to let go of the old before bringing in the new. Being suspended with nothing to hold on is a scary feeling.”
Why? I guess it explains it all.
okay rushing out. ciaos
My Sun and Moon Combination
Sagittarius/Gemini
The combination of your Sun sign and your Moon sign produces a personality that is by no means shy, timid or backward. You will step to the front when the call for leadership is made. You are a very adventurous person, both physically and mentally, never satisfied to stand still in either sense. Because you are naturally lucky in a financial way, you are never really very concerned about security. You know how to sell yourself and achieve a good deal of popular prestige.
You are apt to see a lot of life before you eventually decide to settle down. Variety, travel, changes, mental stimulation, and a wide range of personalities around you are all needed to busy your extremely restless nature. Stability is your challenge; staying with a project, a cause, or even a person sometimes, can be a really hard task for you. Concentrating your efforts in one focused direction can be your weakness.
Nonetheless, your broad range of interests and your enthusiasm will allow you to continue to be effective in working on a lot of things and making continuous progress on all of them. Pettiness is something you have difficulty understanding and of which are never guilty. Everything you do is above board and rendered in a grand fashion.
You rarely exercise caution or care, never one to shy away from taking a risk, so long as there is a reasonable change things will work out. You want to get to the top and you very well may, guided by a mixture of idealism, faith in yourself, and cool, practical good sense. Yours is a high spirit and a good grasp of reality.
Sagittarius/Gemini
The combination of your Sun sign and your Moon sign produces a personality that is by no means shy, timid or backward. You will step to the front when the call for leadership is made. You are a very adventurous person, both physically and mentally, never satisfied to stand still in either sense. Because you are naturally lucky in a financial way, you are never really very concerned about security. You know how to sell yourself and achieve a good deal of popular prestige.
You are apt to see a lot of life before you eventually decide to settle down. Variety, travel, changes, mental stimulation, and a wide range of personalities around you are all needed to busy your extremely restless nature. Stability is your challenge; staying with a project, a cause, or even a person sometimes, can be a really hard task for you. Concentrating your efforts in one focused direction can be your weakness.
Nonetheless, your broad range of interests and your enthusiasm will allow you to continue to be effective in working on a lot of things and making continuous progress on all of them. Pettiness is something you have difficulty understanding and of which are never guilty. Everything you do is above board and rendered in a grand fashion.
You rarely exercise caution or care, never one to shy away from taking a risk, so long as there is a reasonable change things will work out. You want to get to the top and you very well may, guided by a mixture of idealism, faith in yourself, and cool, practical good sense. Yours is a high spirit and a good grasp of reality.