Tuesday, February 7 @1:09 AM
gradually i slowed down my footsteps, hoping that u will be on pile with me.when your attention is diverted to something else,my heart throbs.i like to be the centre of attention, i like you cause.. everything is beyond words can explain.naive- i shall not believe what my heart says.i should be alone,not another failed r/s nor a "not-suppose-to-be-together" r/s. stop day-dreaming,alicia.my bottled-up feeling was exposed during work.tears sheded freely.i lost control of my self.the stress that no one knows.another deadly depression.people, stop asking me to be strong. cos' i know i am not.why must i act at if i am strong?why must i act at if i am fine alone?i am not.i swear i am not right.a photo frame fell and broke into pieces.before i can react,people stared at me.at that moment i know,is enough.i had enough.i cried.agnes and alex said i got a fright that why.but i know alex knows why.yes, i got a fright.on the other hand, i was stressed.all this may make no sense to anyone.cos' no one understand.when this happened,i hoped my crush was there for me.hopeful thinking is rubbish.silly he said.coming to realise,is all a bull-shit.i need a break.i am drop-dead tired.physically and emotionally drained.ALICIA.