Tuesday, February 7 @9:56 PM
Sorry, i dint know you were going thru the same thing as i'm. Guess we are both are in the same boat. Both equaly in denial. Just that we are both in 2 different situation. Like you are just in the beginning. Never put yourself into it. Never i dun want you to end up like me. I learnt my lesson. The fact that i won't play with fire again. Its burns! really bad. All that had left was goodbye. I tried to pick myself up but i couldnt see things far. Its just today day by day. Nothing esle. I dun dare to plan things far anymore cause i cant afford to die another day. My senses are lost in somewhere which i know i can never find them again. I dun want to inflict my misery onto others. I dun want to make my misery others. I tried to smile but its only for that min or 2. No longer than that. I'm sorry if you tried calling me or anything and i dint reply cause i seriously wanna be alone. I miss you i seriously do. Cause i know you are the clown in my life. You will make me happy and i'm feeling gulity that i'm not there when you needed me. Sorry for that. just wanna say thank you for standing by me. I just wanna be alone for the time being. love. but i miss you. Contradicting as it sounds. let's meet up soon