Friday, March 24 @12:26 AM
amazing. i never shed a tear today. maybe partially is cos' i'm so sick of everything. the issue to me seem numb. but everything seem positive now. i'm being my old-self again. cheerful and mad. i dont want anymore of those shit to bother me. yes, i love him alot and i cant bare to leave. i promise i will leave if the same thing happen again. i went out with darrell the whole day. spend the whole afternoon together. doing cliche stuff that young couple do. having luch at pepper lunch and catch a show over at cine. playing arcade together. no difference from any other couple on the surface. but who knows what's happening behind. auntie nancy called darrell this afternoon, i think she know about everything. but sometime i have to be selfish to think for myself. ain't it right? we do something tat i love alot which shopping at cold storage. all this are memories that hold me back. i know is shocking to know that i'm madly in love. breathing normally now, not suffocating like the past days. i told myself that i wont get bother by this again. hope wat i said, i will do it. we prepare dinner together. teerible. we make a mess outta of everything. but he was lovely enough to prepare dinner for me. till now, i still wondering am i doing the right thing. may god bless me. we somehow did talk about the matter. since he bought up the issue, somehow mean he cares. i haven been sleeping well this few night, wonder can i sleep tonight. i'm still lost, but i know i soon will find an ans to everything.