Friday, March 3 @1:21 AM
everything dont seem right.everyone seem like breaking up.but i know there's something between us that will make me stay. everyone can't seem to feel contented with what they have.when there's someone to pamper and coax you, you simply ask for more or the extreme- perfection.i hope after reading my entry, people start to change for a better or cherish what's before their eyes. i ain't someone good nor bad.but i know in any r/s, people must practise "give and take". yes, is true that i cant even ask the one i love stay.just cos' of this reason, i ask people that are in a r/s to cherish before it is gone.i'm deeply in love once before; last year.i gone thru all the ups and downs with my partner.and because feeling start turning into a habit.my partner was gone before i knew.that time i was too sad to appoarch my partner,i chose to let everything go and live in denial that i had moved on.when i know i still cant go on,i turn to a someone that i dont even recongise and make things worse between us.i start throwing tantrums and insist everything in my way.in the end, i got nothing. none of the love, none of the attention i used to have.i was alone from then on.now, i feel guilty cos' of the guys i rejected. they are nice people and yet... i choose to be single.i know from the start i cannot commit. so i choose to reject and stay single all the way.today,girlfriends of mine start calling me and told about their r/s.i evny them but i have no reason to commit or love someone.and yah.. girls.. cherish. since u guys know that u love that person, held on tight to him/her.is nice to have people to pamper and love you. but rem COMPROMISE.dont ask for more, and ended up is too much.facing some problems now. family problems to be actual. i need to be independent and face it with them. my result is coming out tmr. so hope everything is on track.i hope that i'm going to love my life again.