Sunday, December 31 @2:45 AM
Her eyes questioned. Her mind wondered. Her soul wandered. The whole night. It was her response that I have to continue remind myself about. Her response. Was intended to take me one step closer. BUT my heart gave it away. Thus, I took 10 steps back. After, I decided to move forward. Against all odds. But she turn her back at me. Through all odds.
I tear myself apart while questioning. Wear myself out trying to figure the answers. Yet all that came out was. Nothing. Nothing near conclusion. I failed to understand. Why? When I was meant to thread the water, I’ve fell in too deep. Why? For every piece of me that wants you. There is another piece back away. I failed to understand. How? You blinded me with the light I shone for you. How? You fought with the strength I gave you.
I waited for hours just to spend alittle time alone with you. I never buy you flowers because I never knew what they mean or what they could mean to you. but did. THREE. Three wishes. Three grants await. I never thought I could feel for someone as much. Because it usually happens in someone else’s dream. Not mine. Never mine.
I mixed up love with lust. I live not for you but for love we share. As much as i want to embrace all, i still stand tall. Although it may bring me down to my knees anytime, I shall not fall. I shall build my wall and not let you break. I shall never let my guard down for now.
But its all too late.
I might call you from my heart someday but it might be a second too late. And the words I never say. Will come out anyway. Not.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,This could be nothingBut I'm willing to give it a try,Please give me something'Cause someday I might know my heart.Know my heart, know my heart, know my heartCurrent noise for messy thoughts match - You give me something by James Marrison